Have Faith in Your Dreams and Someday Your Rainbow Will Come Smiling Through

I'm going to be honest: I'm having a hard time being positive these days. I'm trying not to lose all hope of finding a decent career. Sometimes I feel like I have no support at all. I've tried to talk to my managers, but there are just so many of us. It's hard to be a shining star when we're all so bright.

It's ok when I'm at work. When I stock I literally put everything I have into making sure my stores look perfect. It's hard work, it's sometimes difficult work, but I do it all with a smile. No one likes stocking, but it has to be done. When I'm on registers I relish every moment, because how often do I get to be on registers? I honestly love my job.

But it's over in January. Internships are posted, it's time to apply, and I'm just stuck on that one-note, one-point not even a month away from being gone in time. I feel so lost. I don't know what I'm supposed to do, what I can do. I feel like I've let myself down, my family down, and everyone I know. I wish I could photograph their faces as I tell them I work merch for Disney, that way I have evidence.